It's been a pretty good couple of days. I had very low energy for Thanksgiving. After eating a bit I sat in a recliner and finished the rest of my dinner there. My body just was not ready for it. Still I had fun and was happy to spend it with my my family. That's all that matters in the end. Even if I was just a lump on a log. My mom never makes turkey for Thanksgiving. We always have an awesome roast and arancini, mushroom stuffed ravioli and a bunch of other good shit that you will never find in any Italian restaurant. Gotta love moms cooking. It's one hell of a Thanksgiving.
That night I got home and did one of my Thanksgiving traditions and watched Planes, Trains and Automobiles. Classic John Hughes and I watch it every Thanksgiving without fail. Don't know why but I have been doing that for years. This year my daughter joined me in watching the movie. She looks at me at the end of the movie and says "well that wasn't funny at all because so many things just kept going wrong for them." I guess she was right lol. Still I think she will find the humor in the years to come.
Besides being very tired all day I did get some anxiety. Nothing to really drive me crazy none the less I had to take something for it to take the edge off. Yesterday was just a quiet day decorating for Christmas. I woke up in the middle of the night and remembered that I forgot to put the elf on the shelf out. Hers is named Snowflake Cuma. No fucking clue where she got that name but there ya have it. So I got the elf and snuck into her backpack to grab a little stuffed dog she took with to my parents house and I put the elf on its back like he was riding in on the dog.
Now I have to come up with twenty eight or so new fun ways to pose the elf the next month. I am thinking he will have fun with Barbie and her friends lol. So we had fun getting the tree up and decorated. Still have a few other things to do. Its hard when I have limited energy to move around storage tubs and get things all done in a day. Most of it is up and done at least the kids enjoy it. I feel blessed that I am even around for the holidays. Times like this really make you think about life and how lucky I was to catch this thing when I did. I mean I still have the scan and have to get my results. I am nervous and at the same time very confident that I have this thing beat.
I have learned that there is no positive without negative. Sounds simple but there is something to that. Thinking positive only makes you fear the negative. There can't be a positive you are thinking unless you are fearing a negative. So I have learned to just be in the moment and accept whatever comes my way. Well let me rephrase that, I am learning to be in the moment. It is not easy but learning to meditate correctly and just understanding that thoughts are just that. Just thoughts and you can not control them but just let them be. You can not be afraid of them. This is how you learn to deal with anxiety and really anything in life. Although it is a hard thing to perfect. I am always learning and working on it.
Still the holiday season really makes you think. Makes you look at life and be thankful to have what you have. I may not have much but right now I have my life and I have my family and true friends that are always there when I need them. At the end of the day that is all that matters. Well I guess that is all I have. I had a nice few days and tonight topped if off getting out to see CREED at the movies. Which I must say was amazing!! A must see for sure. I was blown away. I did have to control my anxiety being in a full movie theater. I have not been to the movies in about seven months. I had a bit of anxiety but I was able to handle it.
Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving weekend Tomorrow I will hit the Mailbag questions I have along with my blog. Send in your questions to blogquestions@outlook.com
SMIB \m/
That night I got home and did one of my Thanksgiving traditions and watched Planes, Trains and Automobiles. Classic John Hughes and I watch it every Thanksgiving without fail. Don't know why but I have been doing that for years. This year my daughter joined me in watching the movie. She looks at me at the end of the movie and says "well that wasn't funny at all because so many things just kept going wrong for them." I guess she was right lol. Still I think she will find the humor in the years to come.
Besides being very tired all day I did get some anxiety. Nothing to really drive me crazy none the less I had to take something for it to take the edge off. Yesterday was just a quiet day decorating for Christmas. I woke up in the middle of the night and remembered that I forgot to put the elf on the shelf out. Hers is named Snowflake Cuma. No fucking clue where she got that name but there ya have it. So I got the elf and snuck into her backpack to grab a little stuffed dog she took with to my parents house and I put the elf on its back like he was riding in on the dog.
Now I have to come up with twenty eight or so new fun ways to pose the elf the next month. I am thinking he will have fun with Barbie and her friends lol. So we had fun getting the tree up and decorated. Still have a few other things to do. Its hard when I have limited energy to move around storage tubs and get things all done in a day. Most of it is up and done at least the kids enjoy it. I feel blessed that I am even around for the holidays. Times like this really make you think about life and how lucky I was to catch this thing when I did. I mean I still have the scan and have to get my results. I am nervous and at the same time very confident that I have this thing beat.
I have learned that there is no positive without negative. Sounds simple but there is something to that. Thinking positive only makes you fear the negative. There can't be a positive you are thinking unless you are fearing a negative. So I have learned to just be in the moment and accept whatever comes my way. Well let me rephrase that, I am learning to be in the moment. It is not easy but learning to meditate correctly and just understanding that thoughts are just that. Just thoughts and you can not control them but just let them be. You can not be afraid of them. This is how you learn to deal with anxiety and really anything in life. Although it is a hard thing to perfect. I am always learning and working on it.
Still the holiday season really makes you think. Makes you look at life and be thankful to have what you have. I may not have much but right now I have my life and I have my family and true friends that are always there when I need them. At the end of the day that is all that matters. Well I guess that is all I have. I had a nice few days and tonight topped if off getting out to see CREED at the movies. Which I must say was amazing!! A must see for sure. I was blown away. I did have to control my anxiety being in a full movie theater. I have not been to the movies in about seven months. I had a bit of anxiety but I was able to handle it.
Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving weekend Tomorrow I will hit the Mailbag questions I have along with my blog. Send in your questions to blogquestions@outlook.com
SMIB \m/
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